flashback

i want to stay on your mind
long after we part
i want you to smell me
on your finger tips
and taste me on your lips
i want your palm to twitch
in the middle of the day
and your throat to become
inexplicably dry as it grabs hold of
your breath
because out of nowhere
you can think of nothing else
but the feel of my exposed skin
and the sound of my quiet gasps
from your bare hand
i want you to lick your lips
and crave the taste
of my reddened skin
because baby
some kisses
were never meant to end

 

May 31, 2017

1:33

it is 1:33
in the morning
and as i lie in bed
i have run out of fingers
counting the things
i miss about you
tonight

there is the way
you wrap your arms around my waist
as i stand between your legs
     the way you sometimes
     brush my hair behind my ear
     before you kiss me
          the way you press your mouth
          hard into mine
          never feeling close enough
               there is the way
               your warm breath
               feels on my neck
                    and my inner thigh

one after the other
all these things
pile up in my mind
until my fingers
must find
some other way
to put me to sleep

 

May 15, 2017

when i say i miss you

when i say
    i miss you
it is not a coy goodbye
like a heart shaped period
at the end of my sentence
it is not something
i whisper out of habit
before hanging up the phone

when i say
    i miss you
i mean that
your absence is palpable
and painful
i mean that
when you’re not
within arms reach
i can think of nothing else
but your touch

when i say
    i miss you
i mean that
without you
my lungs find it hard to breathe
and my heart can’t keep a steady beat

when i say
     i miss you
i also mean that
     i want you
     i need you
     and
     i love you

 

April 3, 2017